"Should I give up? Or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere."
- Adele (Chasing Pavements)
This part of the song
suits my feelings very well.
So, this day was suppose to be one of the
best days ever because I got the chance to spend some time with him. But unfortunately, just like the weather right now, everything, everyone, and whatever I see right now, turned out to be so devastating.
First of all, I had to walk for long distances just to go to my next classes. My last class was at the
College of Veterinary Medicine; my subject for that was Psychology. Me and my classmates ran and walked and ran and walked, just to be on time for class, but, the odds were not in our favor, so, we were late. Good thing our professor let us in to listen to his class. (This is really not the big deal why my day was devastating.)
Aside from the event stated above, the reason why my day turned out to be so cruel, devastating, claustrophobic, unfortunate, and everything sad is because, I received a bad news, a very, I mean, very very bad news. First, it turned out to be so right, but later on, it didn’t. I’ve had a lot of questions running in my mind right now. Questions like “Why?” “Why us?” “How come?” and “Why are they doing this to me? And to us?” I mean, come on people! Get a life! You have your own, why would you interfere to a person which obviously has the right to choose his own will and freedom? Is it really necessary to break a bond just to satisfy the status quo? For me, it isn’t! Justice. Freedom. Don’t you even understand that?! Now I’m thinking how immature those people are for interfering with someone’s life. They don’t have the right to be like that!
Right now, they must have felt sudden relief, contentment and happiness. Thanks a lot! You left somebody shattered and broken. Really. To those people whom I referring to, I don’t hold
grudges, and I easily forgive. God forgives, so can I, because I’m just a mere human. But what I’m pointing out is, they can give advice, but not to the extent that they’d dictate that person on what to do. He has a life for Pete’s sake! Let him enjoy it! Free will. Don’t you even understand that?! Please. Because he’s not the only one who’s affected, and was left shattered and broken to pieces, so am I. It’s the two of us that was left hurt. People, I hope you change your mind. Please don’t think of what others will think about him, or about all of you. He has the right to be happy for his own reasons. So, that’s all. I guess I’ve said enough. Thanks.
I don’t care if no one can read this, all I care is that, I’ve let out my emotions and opinions. I don’t care! People should start getting a life!
Pissed. Broken. Sad.
And that my friend, is the sad fate of falling in love. Forbidden love is much worse than a person falling out of love. Sad but true </3
~ Samantha xx